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Sunday, July 5
St. Anger around my neck
Anyone that knows me well, realize my anger problems
well last night i took me to a whole new level.
note my pants were for a while only. its a mess i know.
Friday, July 3
you said you care..
you said you were there
i gave myself up again to you
i really really hope that that decision won't come back slapping me in the face
you know i find it hard to trust people.
prove to me that you care.
because while typing this, i had that ever so familiar numb feeling you get in your abdomen. and that is usually a bad omen. but only god knows
my feelings are about to burst in a colourful array of black and white contrast colours. too fill up this world with all its made up of, disappointment, betrayal and depression.
you said you were there
i gave myself up again to you
i really really hope that that decision won't come back slapping me in the face
you know i find it hard to trust people.
prove to me that you care.
because while typing this, i had that ever so familiar numb feeling you get in your abdomen. and that is usually a bad omen. but only god knows
my feelings are about to burst in a colourful array of black and white contrast colours. too fill up this world with all its made up of, disappointment, betrayal and depression.
for whom the bells tolls,
you only talked to me when you needed my help
not when you wanted too.
guess that was reall all you wanted.
other than that i think i am virtually useless too you.
i can't blame you
your happy already its fine :)
cse i am doing great!
btw my desicions are based on what i think and what i feel
no one thinks for me and no one will ever do so.
and no one will ever judge me other than myself
and if you disagree on my point you should have fought back when you had the chance, not when the chance was long gone.
not when you wanted too.
guess that was reall all you wanted.
other than that i think i am virtually useless too you.
i can't blame you
your happy already its fine :)
cse i am doing great!
btw my desicions are based on what i think and what i feel
no one thinks for me and no one will ever do so.
and no one will ever judge me other than myself
and if you disagree on my point you should have fought back when you had the chance, not when the chance was long gone.
the heart of life really IS good
i have never felt so calm before :)
hahaha this is the point of my life which i decide to change myself for the greater good.
yes it started out bad but once i found my inner peace, everything went spectacular.
reading helps to calm my mind.
eases my soul. its nice when its all quiet just me and the book. no one else in the room.
just the sound of the fans and the air con. :) hahaha i am way more calm and way better than how i was before. Alhamdulilah.
Now all i am thinking about is my PMR. and next year i wish to move out of this forsaken town. i would be delighted if i was given the chance to.
Ms Charlene talked to me about someone.
i said she can't stand the people here
and Ms Charlene said "Only now she realize how the people here are?" HAHA i laughed hearing this from her. Another person who agrees with me. sweet. I don't understand why many people hate her, shes a nice person if shes not in her teacher mode.
I am gaining a deep interest in literature.
I want to expand my vocabulary and increase my general knowledge.
My dad always told me, "Zaim, you will never gain anything from playing games and wasting your time, you have to spend your time wisely, read book STUDY. Without education life is meaningless. its the books that bring you too college not your games. Read books." He told me that everyday, Read Study Study. My parents always told me to live by this saying, "Knowledge is power." A war is won not through fire power, instead of vital intel pieces that win a war.
I currently have 5books from my dad waiting for me to jump into and enjoy. I am currently reading this book by John C. Maxwell, Talent is Never Enough. I have learned much from it, and i still have quite a long way to go before i finish it. If you are interested in good literature or just want a good read or need a good motivation book, I HIGHLY RECOMMEND you to get it. trust me you won't get disappointed.
So yeah thats about it :)
till i blog again
hahaha this is the point of my life which i decide to change myself for the greater good.
yes it started out bad but once i found my inner peace, everything went spectacular.
reading helps to calm my mind.
eases my soul. its nice when its all quiet just me and the book. no one else in the room.
just the sound of the fans and the air con. :) hahaha i am way more calm and way better than how i was before. Alhamdulilah.
Now all i am thinking about is my PMR. and next year i wish to move out of this forsaken town. i would be delighted if i was given the chance to.
Ms Charlene talked to me about someone.
i said she can't stand the people here
and Ms Charlene said "Only now she realize how the people here are?" HAHA i laughed hearing this from her. Another person who agrees with me. sweet. I don't understand why many people hate her, shes a nice person if shes not in her teacher mode.
I am gaining a deep interest in literature.
I want to expand my vocabulary and increase my general knowledge.
My dad always told me, "Zaim, you will never gain anything from playing games and wasting your time, you have to spend your time wisely, read book STUDY. Without education life is meaningless. its the books that bring you too college not your games. Read books." He told me that everyday, Read Study Study. My parents always told me to live by this saying, "Knowledge is power." A war is won not through fire power, instead of vital intel pieces that win a war.
I currently have 5books from my dad waiting for me to jump into and enjoy. I am currently reading this book by John C. Maxwell, Talent is Never Enough. I have learned much from it, and i still have quite a long way to go before i finish it. If you are interested in good literature or just want a good read or need a good motivation book, I HIGHLY RECOMMEND you to get it. trust me you won't get disappointed.
So yeah thats about it :)
till i blog again
btw tysha ne kamu -_-
Edit, AND i proved that you can get through a WHOLE day of school with just an Hour of sleep :) hahahaah i was fueled by 2cups of coffee and 2cans of 100plus :) i feel awesome :)
Thursday, July 2
Things To Do Before PMR
Things To Do AFTER PMR
i'm going to make most of what time i have left in this world
life is short and i am NOT going to waste a minute of it.
hopefully at half of the things here would be crossed out of the list
Insyaallah
- STUDY TILL I GET A STROKE
Things To Do AFTER PMR
- Learn musical theory for guitar and piano
- Read books.
- Improve English
- Enlarge my general knowledge of things
- Open my mind up to new things (music,books,games etc)
- Write a song
- Learn to shred
- Lose some weight (much needed)
- Attend talks and speeches
- Go out more often with family and friends
- Meet new people
- Make a band
- Learn a new instrument
- Taking time to breath, take in all the things around me and calm myself down
- Become a better Muslim
- Become a better person
i'm going to make most of what time i have left in this world
life is short and i am NOT going to waste a minute of it.
hopefully at half of the things here would be crossed out of the list
Insyaallah
to all the metallica haters
Why I Can't Stand "True" Metallica Fans
I have reasons for this, and they are as follows;
1) If you consider yourself a "true" Metallica fan, most likely you will feel some kind of pride in knowing their history/all their albums/etc. like it has actually benefitted your life in some way. You will argue till the death about how you are a "true" fan and anyone who either recently discovered them, or only likes them for their more recent albums is nothing but a joke. But in all actuality, any Metallica fan who will do any of this is nothing but a joke themselves. They must feel like they hold some kind of power over the rest of the fans since they started listening to them in the 80's. Well I happen to be a fan from the 80's too, but anyone who picks up there music and it enjoys it, whether today or tomorrow, is no less of a fan than me. I'm a man not a child, Metallica grew up so why can't you?
2)So many Metallica fans are nothing but whiners. Goddamn, get over the fact that Metallica had cut their hair and changed up their sound. I still hear people talking about it like it's relevant to anything that Metallica is. Look, they changed their sound drastically after ...and Justice for All, I get that, but no matter the change their music never suffered. Grow the fuck up and open your ears. Load and ReLoad were 2 solid albums, end of story. All the little whiners will do nothing but whine about how those albums sucked, but any "true" Metallica fan will take time to appreciate them since they came from the band which they hold so dear. If it's one thing Metallica has it's an army of hypocrites for a following. "I love Metallica, but I hate half their albums" or "older Metallica is better"...Give me a break. A "true" fan would love all their material no matter what. thats what being a loyal fan is about. keep loyal to your band.
3) Death Magnetic is nothing but greatness. Stop comparing their latest releases to older meterial. What are you stuck in a damn time warp? Their sound on Death Magnetic is more modern, it fits with today...same as their first 4 albums had a feel that fit that decade. And just to throw it out there, St.Anger may have been a little misstep for them but it was still better than most of the other albums released in '03. I am also irritated when people say "Enough with the wah already kirk." OK kirk without wah is like spahgetti and meatballs, liquid nitrogen with a little spark. because his signature style IS the wah wah. Imagine Hendrix without his ACID. thats how kirk is without his WAH.
4)They will always claim Metallica are sellouts. But then they will go listen to Megadeth or Slayer and say "well I'm glad these guys stayed true"...news flash, Slayer and Megadeth have sold out too...years ago!! oh no, i can't believe it!!! In all actuality, most bands do. even some of the more extreme metal acts will at times sneak into the mainstream way of things. When it comes down to it, money is survival. That band you label sellout is also a job to the members involved in it. If they want to make more money at their job then why should they be held back from it? If you label them sellouts then any job you hold better than McDonalds should bring the same label onto yourself. You want/need more money but you'll criticise someone else for wanting the same...typical "fan"
5)STOP COMPARING THEM WITH MEGADETH. Megadeth and Metallica are TWO seperate totally DIFFERENT bands! why would you want to compare them? Stop comparing Kirk and Mustaine! Whenever i post a comment on Youtube. Saying Kirk is God etc etc, some guy would say hey you fucking dipshit gay ass piece of fuck, Mustaine is WAYYyyYYy Better than kirk! TRUE he may wrote Kill em All and 2 Ride the Lightning songs(Ride The Lightning and Ktulu) but stop for a second and appreciate BOTH guitarists! each has their flaws.
well those are just reasons why I can't stand alot of Metallica fans. I'm sure I'll see someone banging away on their keyboard and sending me a childish response saying how i'm wrong, i'm this, i'm that...i mean there are "true" Metallica fans that will read this so it's pretty much a guarantee to see someone whine about what i said
--Metallica Is Forever--
-and forever is Metallica-
I have reasons for this, and they are as follows;
1) If you consider yourself a "true" Metallica fan, most likely you will feel some kind of pride in knowing their history/all their albums/etc. like it has actually benefitted your life in some way. You will argue till the death about how you are a "true" fan and anyone who either recently discovered them, or only likes them for their more recent albums is nothing but a joke. But in all actuality, any Metallica fan who will do any of this is nothing but a joke themselves. They must feel like they hold some kind of power over the rest of the fans since they started listening to them in the 80's. Well I happen to be a fan from the 80's too, but anyone who picks up there music and it enjoys it, whether today or tomorrow, is no less of a fan than me. I'm a man not a child, Metallica grew up so why can't you?
2)So many Metallica fans are nothing but whiners. Goddamn, get over the fact that Metallica had cut their hair and changed up their sound. I still hear people talking about it like it's relevant to anything that Metallica is. Look, they changed their sound drastically after ...and Justice for All, I get that, but no matter the change their music never suffered. Grow the fuck up and open your ears. Load and ReLoad were 2 solid albums, end of story. All the little whiners will do nothing but whine about how those albums sucked, but any "true" Metallica fan will take time to appreciate them since they came from the band which they hold so dear. If it's one thing Metallica has it's an army of hypocrites for a following. "I love Metallica, but I hate half their albums" or "older Metallica is better"...Give me a break. A "true" fan would love all their material no matter what. thats what being a loyal fan is about. keep loyal to your band.
3) Death Magnetic is nothing but greatness. Stop comparing their latest releases to older meterial. What are you stuck in a damn time warp? Their sound on Death Magnetic is more modern, it fits with today...same as their first 4 albums had a feel that fit that decade. And just to throw it out there, St.Anger may have been a little misstep for them but it was still better than most of the other albums released in '03. I am also irritated when people say "Enough with the wah already kirk." OK kirk without wah is like spahgetti and meatballs, liquid nitrogen with a little spark. because his signature style IS the wah wah. Imagine Hendrix without his ACID. thats how kirk is without his WAH.
4)They will always claim Metallica are sellouts. But then they will go listen to Megadeth or Slayer and say "well I'm glad these guys stayed true"...news flash, Slayer and Megadeth have sold out too...years ago!! oh no, i can't believe it!!! In all actuality, most bands do. even some of the more extreme metal acts will at times sneak into the mainstream way of things. When it comes down to it, money is survival. That band you label sellout is also a job to the members involved in it. If they want to make more money at their job then why should they be held back from it? If you label them sellouts then any job you hold better than McDonalds should bring the same label onto yourself. You want/need more money but you'll criticise someone else for wanting the same...typical "fan"
5)STOP COMPARING THEM WITH MEGADETH. Megadeth and Metallica are TWO seperate totally DIFFERENT bands! why would you want to compare them? Stop comparing Kirk and Mustaine! Whenever i post a comment on Youtube. Saying Kirk is God etc etc, some guy would say hey you fucking dipshit gay ass piece of fuck, Mustaine is WAYYyyYYy Better than kirk! TRUE he may wrote Kill em All and 2 Ride the Lightning songs(Ride The Lightning and Ktulu) but stop for a second and appreciate BOTH guitarists! each has their flaws.
well those are just reasons why I can't stand alot of Metallica fans. I'm sure I'll see someone banging away on their keyboard and sending me a childish response saying how i'm wrong, i'm this, i'm that...i mean there are "true" Metallica fans that will read this so it's pretty much a guarantee to see someone whine about what i said
--Metallica Is Forever--
-and forever is Metallica-
Winning is all
Trust, Love, Justice, Friendship are all DEAD
Trust is rapedJustice is gone
Love is lost
Friendship is dead
Peace is no more
Death is in bound
Hate is all around
Lies, Cheats, Jackasses surrounds us
i have heard many things today.
"people are retards" i quote
the wolf of lies beset upon your door
scratching howling to feed on your lies and your forgery.
there is no more truth i can tell
There is no truth
everything is all in vain
Just what is truth i cannot see, i cannot tell
people speak no truth
money winning and power is all
seek nothing but fame money and glory
for that is the true calling in todays heart
hungry power mongrels seek upon you.
Where oh where has the world gone now?
the peace, the love is gone.
try and try yourself to seek for it
but it a tremendous waste of time.
the world as we know it is coming to an end.
May Allah forgive me and all of us
the heart of life?
even though people say i am here for you. i still feel alone. i still feel worthless. nothing can take this feeling away. i guess the heart of life is truly not that good, i doubted Mr Mayer. i feel like everything's a worthless scam. a trick, just lies and deceit. everything is just utterly pointless and just so stupid.
Wednesday, July 1
random rants and thoughts
i wonder how does it feel to hump dry ice...
kimak eh i am farting like a flower releases oxygen through photosyntesis. means a lot.
fuck la pmr in what 97? days excluding today.
i dreamt i was playing with metallica. side by side with kirk and james. i think i came.....
i imagine owning my dream guitar set. playing in my room.
AHH too get sett - KH Signature, Randall/Marshall amp, Cry Baby Wah, Distortion.
thats all i need to start out.
AHHH :(
8A's is what my mum said to get those. FUCK Playstation.
school was school
kerja kursus is kimaked.
i am feeling alone.
metallica makes me feel happy and warm inside :)
each time i play the guitar, every worry and stress goes out with every note i hit
it feels GOOD.
i'm done with people now.
umm people are ignorant.
wheres my mum :( i'm supposed to go to pustake
i feel worthless
i feel unless
pinch harmonics are orgasmic.
how does it feel to get your balls kicked so hard to puke blood? SWEET
is it possible to run on a treadmill with heels?
i wish the world could change into a better, greener, more peace loving place.
i wish people will stop being dickheads/palak butoh.
i miss being a child
i long for a new guitar.
are friends really all that?
wow.
ok bye
kimak eh i am farting like a flower releases oxygen through photosyntesis. means a lot.
fuck la pmr in what 97? days excluding today.
i dreamt i was playing with metallica. side by side with kirk and james. i think i came.....
i imagine owning my dream guitar set. playing in my room.
AHH too get sett - KH Signature, Randall/Marshall amp, Cry Baby Wah, Distortion.
thats all i need to start out.
AHHH :(
8A's is what my mum said to get those. FUCK Playstation.
school was school
kerja kursus is kimaked.
i am feeling alone.
metallica makes me feel happy and warm inside :)
each time i play the guitar, every worry and stress goes out with every note i hit
it feels GOOD.
i'm done with people now.
umm people are ignorant.
wheres my mum :( i'm supposed to go to pustake
i feel worthless
i feel unless
pinch harmonics are orgasmic.
how does it feel to get your balls kicked so hard to puke blood? SWEET
is it possible to run on a treadmill with heels?
i wish the world could change into a better, greener, more peace loving place.
i wish people will stop being dickheads/palak butoh.
i miss being a child
i long for a new guitar.
are friends really all that?
wow.
ok bye
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